So I've had a pretty eventful week…
Had another counselling appointment on Monday. They seem to be helping (you know when I don't allow others to push me back).
I was at my GP again on Tuesday. I got put on new, stronger meds. I know these will help me to get better but I just feel like such a failure. I feel like I should be better by now but instead I seem to be getting worse… I'm going to give these new meds a chance of course because I know they are a tool to help me!
I was away at a residential on Wednesday and Thursday. It was the first time I had been away with people i didn't know since my anxiety got really out of control so I was worried about how it would go. It was a training thing for Inspiring Leaders, a program run by my university! Almost the whole time I felt like I wasn't good enough to be there and that I wasn't a good enough leader to be receiving the training! I still tried to get the most out of it and I did genuinely enjoy it! Just made me realise I need to work on how I view myself!
I was off today and was all for revising for a test next week. I think I did about 10 minutes work… I just can't find the motivation to do anything at the minute. I then feel like I'm not doing enough for uni and everyone's doing so much more than me. This makes me feel like even more of a failure…
Going to just have to try to keep muddling on!